I am going to be expelled from my Ph.D. program because a new regulation which set after me interestingly affects me. I was gradually believing that I might stay in Turkey for rest of my life, but this assured me it is not a good place to live. When I came here I was running from the same things in my own country. Unfortunately, every thing is the same here but a slight difference. I left my hometown, family, beliefs and so on for what. I have to go out from this country. It is not a place to live because of the governmental management system rather than my beloved university.